My Love Blog :D

Sa dinadami dami nang nabasa kong love blogs para sa Eraserheads, lahat nakarelate ako. Grabe men, ang daming nagmamahal sa banda. Akala ko dati ako at ang kapatid ko na number one fans nila. Andami pala. :D At sa mga panahong ganito, na insomniac na naman ang lola nyo, nainspire naman ako na gumawa ng sarili kong listahan. The past 10 years with eheads in my life. *Naks* Pagbigyan na, ngayon lang ako nagblog nang mahaba. Haha. Hindi ko na magagawa to pag nagpreres na ko.

Naalala ko nun, may exam kami sa Araling Panlipunan, 2^nd year highschool, hindi na magkasya sa utak namin (as I remember, joanne, carms, theresa, and others) ung mga kung anu anong treaties ng pilipinas sa history. Saktong kakaaral ko pa lang ng adlib ng “Minsan”. Kaya dinaan na lang namin sa gitara at kantahan, (syempre may songhits pa kami nyan) sa gitna pa ng lockers area yan ha. (Hindi ko na maalala kung pumasa kami sa AP) Hehe.

Dahil sa “Huwag mo nang itanong” ko nakilala ang first love ko. Hahaha. Sa tambayan namin malapit sa tennis court. Tumutugtog ako ng gitara, (puro eraserheads lang alam ko nun) nagrequest ung barkada nya, kahit hindi naman kami magkakakilala. Stylus. Ayos!

Nagconcert sa Bene ang Eraserheads back-to-back with Rivermaya. Naiyak talga ko sa tuwa nun. First time ko sila makikita. Bumili pa ako ng 30pesos per picture ni Ely sa kaklase ko. Lima pa ata un. Anmahal pala ng benta nya. Pero pinatos ko pa din. Oh well. Nakadikit na din naman sa diary ko un. Solb.

First time namin nagkalandline, ang hilig namin sa prank calls. At nakuha namin ung home number ni Ely. Kilig na kilig kami nung narinig namin boses nya sa answering machine. Hahaha. Kakahiya. Tapos siguro nafed-up na si Lally, sinagot na nya, tapos kinausap kami for more than an hour. Wala lang, nagsalita lang sya. Hindi na kami tumawag pagkatpos nun. :P

May panahon lang na lahat ng “E” ko nakaharap sa kaliwa. :P

Sabi sa balita, may backmasking daw ung Circus album. Gusto namin itry ng kapatid ko, pero syempre ayaw namin masira ang precious tape ng Circus. Kaya nag-dub muna kami, tsaka namin binack mask. Syempre wala kaming naintindihan. Kunwari na lang may narinig na “devil…” pero wala talga. Hehehe.

Pambonding naming magkapatid ang pagusapan ang Eraserheads. At naming magpipinsan ang paggitara ng kanta nila.

Paulit-ulit namin pinapatugtog ung Ultraelectromagneticpop album, tawang tawa kasi kami dun sa “bictor,bictor, adam, uno dos tres” bago “Combo on the Run”. At si Punk Zappa! Winner. :D

May record pa ako hanggang ngayon nung radio concert nila sa RX nung Cutterpillow album.

Nagcucutout pa ako ng pics nila dati sa songhits. Nung nabasa ko sa profile ni Ely na 25 years old na sya, “syet, ang tanda na ni Ely, wala na kong pag-asa!” Wahahahaha.

Gustong gusto namin pumunta sa Club Dredd nung highschool, kaso walang maghahatid samin. Hehehe.

Unang beses ko nagmura, dahil kinanta ko ung "Pare Ko". Haha.

Unang tuntong ko sa UP Diliman, Casaa at Kalayaan ang hinanap ko. At tuwang tuwa ako na sa Tandang Sora kami nakahanap ng bahay. (Puede na kaming tumambay) :P

Andami pa. Pero nakakahiya na ung iba eh. Hehehe. Nakakatuwa lang magreminisce. Products of my insomnia.

Hay. I'll do this again, You can bet your puet.

Me loves eheads. =)

Lomographers.Cameras for Sale!!! :)

Brand new demekin, golden half and qpoppy from japan! message me if you're interested. :)

everything by alanis

i soooo loooove this song. (love with more than one 'O' means i reaaaalllyy love it. :) i will be playing this in my wedding (whenever that may be). Heck, I might even sing it while walking down the aisle! (I like it that much, to the point of ruining my wedding... haha) It just says what i want to say to my groom-to-be (hmm!!). Him loving my weirdness and all.


I can be an asshole of the grandest kind
I can withold like it's going out of style
I can be the moodiest baby
And you've never met anyone
As negative as I am sometimes

I am the wisest woman you've ever met
I'm the kindest soul with whom you've connected
I have the bravest heart that you've ever seen
And you've never met anyone
As positive as I am sometimes

You see everything
You see every part
You see all my light]
And you love my dark
You dig everything
Of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can't relate
And you're still here

I blame everyone else, not my own partaking
My passive agressiveness can be devastating
I'm terrified and mistrusting
And you've never met anyone who's closed down as I am sometimes

What I resist, persists, and speaks louder than I know
What I resist, you love, no matter how low or high I go

I am the funniest woman that you've ever known
I am the dullest woman that you've ever known
I am the most gorgeous woman that you've ever known
And you've never met anyone as everything as I am sometimes

You see everything
You see every part
You see all my light
And you love my dark
You dig everything
Of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can't relate
And you're still here
And you're still here
And you're still here

bumness!

i love my new funky theme! :)

Yes, i've got nothing to do but to upload photos and find new themes for my account. I'm even writing a blog!! (which i find a hard time to do, even in my 24-hour free time, for reasons i do not want to let you know...)

I wake up at 3pm everyday now. I'm no use in this household, except to fix my own room (even that doesn't happen everyday).

Haayy... i'm such a bum. At first i reaaaalllyyy enjoyed it. I mean, after two years of no good sleep, no summer vacation, no holidays. Ahh... This is LIFE.

But after 40 days of lying around, finishing all the TV series i had lined up... I am ready to get back to work!!!! or at least ready to move my butt around other than at home. Okay, sige, i don't want to get back to work yet. hahaha. Just get some kind of income, so i could get out more often. My parents are not pressuring me, but I kinda get hiya to ask for money right now. Because i'm 26 years old, a licensed physician, with no income. That is NOT normal, man.

limbo...

finally! 3 loooong months of studying, tons of coffee and tortillas, and a LOT of weight gain...
all the crying spells and sleepless nights praying that all these sacrifices would pay off...
finally! i passed the boards. i can get on with my life. woohoo!!

(.one day post boards)
SLEEP!!!!

(.one week post boards)
PARTEEH!!!!

(.two weeks post boards)
DVD MARATHON!!!

(.three weeks post boards)
Read the novels i oh-so-want to read for the longest time...

(.four weeks post boards)
...........
.............
i find myself waking up at 3 in the afternoon, sleeping at 5 in the morning. Sitting in front of the computer, watching videos, playing online games. Eating brunch at 3pm, dinner at 10pm.

in other words, i find myself as a big professional BUM a.k.a. Palamunin (in tagalog).

i've been trying to decide (trying) whether i should go into residency this year, or not. there are so many options i don't know which to choose. As i try to decide (try), i end up becoming such a bum i'm getting decubitus ulcers already.

passing the boards isn't the answer to all my hardships in med after all.
damn, di pa pala tapos. sheet.

a lot has happened for the past months.
A LOT.
I found love.*
I lost someone.
Still in the process of recuperating from the shock. from the loss...
Still unsure of the emotions locked up inside.
All i know now, is that i miss her.
I miss her smile, her laugh, the way her hand feels, the sound of her voice...
I miss her presence.
It's sad that i only realized how much she is a part of my life when i lost her.
I regret not hugging her enough. Nor telling her how much she means to me.

I miss her.
I lost my lola. But I lost her to Someone up there. So it's fair.
She's happy, i know.
We have another angel watching over us.

*so not the time to write about it...

on weddings... and proposals...

i just got home from my cousin's wedding. i was one of the secondary sponsors. grabe. ang tatanda na namin. when a decade ago, i can still remember, my cousins and i would pretend to be in a club, with flashlights as our disco lights and a dance mix tape we had to flip to side a and b now and then. feeling cool na kami nun. haha.

everytime i watch the bride walking down the aisle with that song (which i love, from My Sassy Girl) in the background, i always get teary-eyed. I just get this feeling of so much hope and happiness for the couple getting married. It's like everything falls into place when you get wed. Mushy ko no? Hay. But of course, it never does fall into place (bitter? haha!).

my other cousin naman, proposed to his girlfriend the other day. i got teary-eyed for the second time today, when i saw the ring and when i heard the story how he proposed. hay again.

now, i'm dressed in a gown, with make-up and all (which i did myself!). la lang, it just sinks in how old i am already... and STILL (for the love of God!) single!

nangangarap lang po.

ever wanted something you just know you can't have?
and IF ever (by some very powerful voodoo miracle - which would probably cost a lot) you do have it, you know you'll just feel guilty all the time anyway.
so what do you do?
i resolve to just stay in the background and just watch "it" go away. the way i always do. hay.

Suntok sa Buwan (Session Road)
Hindi mo ba alam
Damdamin ko'y pinagtakpan
Makasama ka'y suntok sa buwan
'Di mo nga alam
Mundo mo nga'y iyong tignan
Kung ganyan, walang pupuntahan
Hindi ko 'to gusto
Pero 'wag kang lalayo
Itanong mo sa akin
At tatanungin ko rin
Kung ika'y aamin
Lahat ay gagawin

'Di mo napapansin
Kailangan mo akong dinggin
'Di habang buhay ika'y aantayin
Ito'y aking hiling
At sana naman ay tanggapin
Ng puso ko'y 'di nabibitin

"Nobody really cares if you're miserable, so you might as well be happy."
--> tumpak!!

galera girls :)