everything by alanis

i soooo loooove this song. (love with more than one 'O' means i reaaaalllyy love it. :) i will be playing this in my wedding (whenever that may be). Heck, I might even sing it while walking down the aisle! (I like it that much, to the point of ruining my wedding... haha) It just says what i want to say to my groom-to-be (hmm!!). Him loving my weirdness and all.


I can be an asshole of the grandest kind
I can withold like it's going out of style
I can be the moodiest baby
And you've never met anyone
As negative as I am sometimes

I am the wisest woman you've ever met
I'm the kindest soul with whom you've connected
I have the bravest heart that you've ever seen
And you've never met anyone
As positive as I am sometimes

You see everything
You see every part
You see all my light]
And you love my dark
You dig everything
Of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can't relate
And you're still here

I blame everyone else, not my own partaking
My passive agressiveness can be devastating
I'm terrified and mistrusting
And you've never met anyone who's closed down as I am sometimes

What I resist, persists, and speaks louder than I know
What I resist, you love, no matter how low or high I go

I am the funniest woman that you've ever known
I am the dullest woman that you've ever known
I am the most gorgeous woman that you've ever known
And you've never met anyone as everything as I am sometimes

You see everything
You see every part
You see all my light
And you love my dark
You dig everything
Of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can't relate
And you're still here
And you're still here
And you're still here

bumness!

i love my new funky theme! :)

Yes, i've got nothing to do but to upload photos and find new themes for my account. I'm even writing a blog!! (which i find a hard time to do, even in my 24-hour free time, for reasons i do not want to let you know...)

I wake up at 3pm everyday now. I'm no use in this household, except to fix my own room (even that doesn't happen everyday).

Haayy... i'm such a bum. At first i reaaaalllyyy enjoyed it. I mean, after two years of no good sleep, no summer vacation, no holidays. Ahh... This is LIFE.

But after 40 days of lying around, finishing all the TV series i had lined up... I am ready to get back to work!!!! or at least ready to move my butt around other than at home. Okay, sige, i don't want to get back to work yet. hahaha. Just get some kind of income, so i could get out more often. My parents are not pressuring me, but I kinda get hiya to ask for money right now. Because i'm 26 years old, a licensed physician, with no income. That is NOT normal, man.

limbo...

finally! 3 loooong months of studying, tons of coffee and tortillas, and a LOT of weight gain...
all the crying spells and sleepless nights praying that all these sacrifices would pay off...
finally! i passed the boards. i can get on with my life. woohoo!!

(.one day post boards)
SLEEP!!!!

(.one week post boards)
PARTEEH!!!!

(.two weeks post boards)
DVD MARATHON!!!

(.three weeks post boards)
Read the novels i oh-so-want to read for the longest time...

(.four weeks post boards)
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i find myself waking up at 3 in the afternoon, sleeping at 5 in the morning. Sitting in front of the computer, watching videos, playing online games. Eating brunch at 3pm, dinner at 10pm.

in other words, i find myself as a big professional BUM a.k.a. Palamunin (in tagalog).

i've been trying to decide (trying) whether i should go into residency this year, or not. there are so many options i don't know which to choose. As i try to decide (try), i end up becoming such a bum i'm getting decubitus ulcers already.

passing the boards isn't the answer to all my hardships in med after all.
damn, di pa pala tapos. sheet.